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"It is a life-long endeavor, learning to accept our children as they are."

-Kevin Nugent, pediatric psychologist

My crazy life

This is my current profile picture on facebook. My sweet friend Christy described it best:

"I guess the profile picture says it all, baby crying, big sister irritated, Daddy trying to figure out what to do, and Mommy just trying to hold it together."

She was so right. We are still standing in the middle of the fire right now. Trying to remember that its in the fire that we are refined. I hope that I come out of the fire a better Christian, wife, mother, and friend.

My sweet husband took me by the hand and lead me to the Word of God tonight. Here is what we as a couple are praying for our home right now.

Psalms 55:22
"Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fail."

-its my biggest fear, to fail as a mother.

Phillipians 4:6-7
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. and the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your heart and your mind."

-my mind has been my enemy lately, and my heart must remain guarded.

1 Peter 5:6-7
"Humble yourselves therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

-He cares about the details of my everyday.

and this one....to remind me to mind my P's and Q's in the hard moments:

Proverbs 15:18
"A hot tempered person stirs up conflict, but the one who is patient calms a quarrel."

The picture above makes me laugh and throw my hands in the air to say, oh this is a season of life I will never forget.

These Two.

I love them.














I love that they love each other!

On Second Thought.

The first time mom who had it ALL together. Yep, that was me! I had read all the books. Read the blogs. Joined every online baby group there was. Spent hours and hours in conversations with other mommies who had done the same things I had.

I have a 2 year old that was the product of my long hours of reading. Tyler and I sleep trained Anslee, and it worked like a charm.

I could brag that my then 8 week old baby slept 8 hours a night. Then, at 10 weeks she slept 10 hours a night. Wait. It gets better. Yes. At 12 weeks that sleep trained girl slept 12 hours a night. I bet you would not even believe that I have never, in 2 years, been up once in the middle of the night with her. Its true. Still true to this very day.

Pat me on the back, mama, I knew my stuff and it showed.

I was the mom who would listen to other's horror stories and walk away with my baby who never gave me any of those problems.

So, you can imagine my utter distress when baby #2 does not cooperate and I am having to "just go with it". This was something I swore I would never do. I was the parent. I made the decisions. Baby would be the one to "just go with it".

It seems kind of ironic that the 2nd time around I am no where close to having it all together like I did the first time. That just can't be right.

Today, I am blessed with a 6 week old who is teaching me new things everyday. I am also humbled, knowing I don't always have the right answers and clearly there is no such thing as a perfect mommy.

Thank you, sweet Kensington. God is already using you to teach your mama valuable lessons. Because of this, I know God will be using you in big ways and I can't wait to see that unfold.