Tuesday, March 1, 2011

On Second Thought.

The first time mom who had it ALL together. Yep, that was me! I had read all the books. Read the blogs. Joined every online baby group there was. Spent hours and hours in conversations with other mommies who had done the same things I had.

I have a 2 year old that was the product of my long hours of reading. Tyler and I sleep trained Anslee, and it worked like a charm.

I could brag that my then 8 week old baby slept 8 hours a night. Then, at 10 weeks she slept 10 hours a night. Wait. It gets better. Yes. At 12 weeks that sleep trained girl slept 12 hours a night. I bet you would not even believe that I have never, in 2 years, been up once in the middle of the night with her. Its true. Still true to this very day.

Pat me on the back, mama, I knew my stuff and it showed.

I was the mom who would listen to other's horror stories and walk away with my baby who never gave me any of those problems.

So, you can imagine my utter distress when baby #2 does not cooperate and I am having to "just go with it". This was something I swore I would never do. I was the parent. I made the decisions. Baby would be the one to "just go with it".

It seems kind of ironic that the 2nd time around I am no where close to having it all together like I did the first time. That just can't be right.

Today, I am blessed with a 6 week old who is teaching me new things everyday. I am also humbled, knowing I don't always have the right answers and clearly there is no such thing as a perfect mommy.

Thank you, sweet Kensington. God is already using you to teach your mama valuable lessons. Because of this, I know God will be using you in big ways and I can't wait to see that unfold.


The Myers said...

Awe Shea! Such sweet, honest words. You totally made me cry. Okay, might be partially due to the hormones, but super sweet and real, none the less. :) Isn't that how the Lord grows and molds us. Keeping us close to him. Hang in there sweet friend and hang onto HIM.

The Skains Family said...

Shea! The second time around is so much harder. I remember it so well and I too thought I had it all together. You are doing a great job! Babies are all so different. Hang in there. She will get it. Just remember she in ONLY 6 weeks old. Just keep trusting Him and that mommy instinct that God blessed you with. I can honestly tell you the third time around has been WAY easier than the second!

Amber Ruth said...

oh shea...brought me to tears. so sweet. your such an awesome mom!